updates for what had happened recently...

3 weeks of sem break, the busiest week was last week... which actually
influenced me in certain way, i should say.

mum called me last mon and we were so happy talking about the preparation
of cny, saying that i will be going back and make cookies for cny, saying that
my bro had hanged the lanterns and the house had been cleaned! it was really
happy, i felt like flying up high in the sky thinking of going back to spend
time with my family, seeing my nieces and nephew.

besides, i also have been thinking of cutting my hair and dye it b4 cny,
thinking of buying new clothes and new make up and so on....

but something really shock happened on wed. it was a bad news! after dinner
at ard 6 stg, when i went to photocopy my air ticket for cny, my aunt called me
suddenly. and that call really terrified me as my aunt never call me at that
time and she sounded weird. she told me that my grandma had passed away!! it was
very shocked to me that i never expect my grandma will pass away so sudden. so,
i called my parents to talked about it and yes! my grandma had passed away. i
was so upset but i still had to control my emotion!

this was a sudden shock for everyone of us cox we never thought that it
would happened in moment like these time! my grandma were always healthy and
strong. after some discussion with my parents and aunts, my 3rd aunt helped me
to book the air ticket going back to miri.

i felt so sad, grandma treated me so nicely when she was still alive! i
still remember the last time i saw her, she was helping me to pluck the fruits.
and the last time i talked to her via phone, she asked me to take care of
myself... everything as like yesterday!

so, on friday morning, i went down to kl by train and i spent my afternoon
at coffee bean till 3 stg. then i took the bus to lcct to meet my aunts and
uncles. it was my 1st time travelling by myself. somehow, i used to wish that i
can have a moment that i can go travelling alone. but i thought it come in a
wrong time--- which was to go back to miri and saw my grandma for the last time!
T.T

then, reached lcct at 4 stg, went to checked in and our flight was at 7 pm.
on the way from kl central to lcct, i saw stg which disappointed me a lot! i saw
bunches on rubbish floating along the drains, and beside the drain, there were
housing area, industrial estate and the worst was school!!! how can ppl living,
working and studying in places like these??? where is all the moral values
taught by educator? where is all the energy spend on saving the environment???
where are them??? i wonder why some ppl rather spend time to "busy body" on
unimportant stuff but not those that are more important? ppl!!! wake up please
and put more effort of more serious problem can?? please dont act stupid ans
childish! it is not the time to do such things when we are all trying to build
up a successful malaysia....

it really disappointed me!

ok... back to miri, i realized that i am tougher compare to last time which
i can actually accpet the death of my grandma passing away. and i knew that she
looked pleasant and comfortable.. most important, i will always remember
the memories of both of us.

went back to miri for only ard 3 days, but this trip made me filled with
love from my parents. my dad bought me a sony vaio laptop, which it actually
touched me a lot. and honestly , i felt so guilty that my dad had to work so
hard just to make sure im doing fine here, make sure that i got what im suppose
to have. my mum, she rather spent the money on buying cloth for me. what more i
want to expect??? all the things they do for me, were full of their love towards
me. somehow, i just dont know how to explain, but i really felt very touch and i
felt so sorry that till now i still need to use their money to buy my stuffs!!
my parents are getting older day by day! i saw their white hair are getting
more! their wrinkles getting more obvious than previous! those bad friends kept
looking for them.... when can i let them rest and ill work for them! when the
day come, ill make sure i do all my best to take care of them!

"those love that cant be seen but can be felt, is true love...
and parents always sacrifice to show their true love for their
children"